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An epiphany!

Not sure how this happened or even IF I can describe it clearly…. but here goes!

I’ve been living an extremely stressful life for a year or 3 …. lol… but true! And I keep doing my utmost to look at what I need to do each do to make my life better, and the most part of my days has been on simple survival issues…. shelter, food, payments for a car, cleaning, eating, creating something new, exercising to improve not just my body, but my emotional stability and to keep faith that all is able to improve. I must be the channel for the change. I must keep seeing my vision of my life as a beautiful yet simple life filled with laughter and friends and family. I must be the instrument that God uses to change my life. There is NO OTHER!

Well, I now am clear that I can make a fresh start again….even tho’ I’ve been doing this every single day and NEARLY every single hour and nearly every single moment to keep going forward. It doesn’t look like I’m going forward if one knew my circumstances and the many negative responses I get when I’m out there being creative in my online ads or my ideas of how to help others as if I help others, that will help me. I’ve looked for house sitter position, cook positions and even housekeeper positions. I even decided to keep a lonely man or woman company for dining and/or cultural arts or for walks, etc…not caregiving, but for companionship. No one answered the ads seriously.  Can’t find anyone who is interested in the best and is ethical enough not to request sex! We all want divine love, but random sex with strangers is not the answer!

What happened in CA!?!?! Why are the men here so awfully, nasty and rude? Most have tried to manipulate and take advantage of me when I share any vulnerability!

Be careful…live by your own standards and remember….you are the chooser of your life choices! Never, ever must one give that up. I don’t believe “beggars can not be choosers”!

Dare I go into those feelings again…


The next days are such a blur in many ways since I have no desire to relive them. I’ll have to relive them pretty well to describe it to you completely. If I start to do so, kudos to me, but if not, apologies for just sharing what I can now. I still have another year or maybe more to go to heal more fully. I’d like to regain my photographic memory, short-term memory, eliminate my anxiety, etc!

So, I was crushed. I was physically in pain, hurting, could hardly sit up, had to lean on the arm of a big, comfy chair or sofa to be able to function for a short time…a very, short time. If my daughter had not been there with me to be such a rock of emotional support and feeding me, I don’t know if I’d have made it! I owe my daughter my life, I believe! I’ve done my utmost to be there for her and help whenever I can for things she can not do, but I’m not able to do that now for her. So I feel badly! My daughter is in more dire need than I perhaps as losing her mind. (Update 8/23…my daughter sounds so much better. She’s possibly found a place to live! I’M SO HAPPY FOR HER!!!) I’m close to losing my mind in many ways as without sleep for one night, they say we act like we’re drunk. But 2 consecutive nights without sleep and we act crazy. Now, imagine…if you can…. which I doubt! that you’ve lost sleep for 3 months, 6 months, 12 months and one full year before I was searching for a new home as our landlord had married and his new wife was not wanting the current lease renewed so we had many problems with the 2 of them then! Imagine not having a safe home, a place to sleep! That’s where we are! Someone has to care enough to help. I’m hoping this blog will not only help me heal by writing, but possibly create a miracle by having a loving-hearted man or woman read this and offer me a place to live. It doesn’t matter if it’s a guesthouse, a wing in a house (I had a 4Ksf house) or if it’s a house or unit you own that is vacant. It could even be a private room and bath in your own home! I’m happy to give Rejuvenation Consultations if you’re interested or just Health Consultations. I can help you get healthy and get fit! Send your contact info to me at: secretstoyouth@gmail.com. Do let me know you’ve read my blog and would like to SAVE A LIFE!

May the blessings be….

That’s all I can do for today!

I had this link appear below so I clicked to read Dare to Be. This is how I have lived my life! It is good someone else believes this too. Please not only read this, but live it to make a better experience for all of us! We’re either lifting up the world or bringing it down!

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NOTE: If you would like to help us start over, we need any help we can get. We need a home, a car each, etc. Email me at: secretstoyouth@gmail.com. If you’d like to hire me for a Rejuvenation Consultation(s), that would be of great help to both you and us! May the blessings be, to you and yours!


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